I need to develop my own voice, express what I believe in. And it needs courage.
The voice starts inside - from internal communication with yourself, where desired and desirable qualities meet. You know what is desirable: your institution gave you guidelines, the other researchers did it in a similar way, you've read a lot about doing research - here is the path in front of you - follow and succeed. Just like with everything in life - follow the rest and you will arrive ... where everybody else does!
And desired can be very deep and hidden, scared by all the rules and regulations, - but this IS your own voice, this is your original contribution. You can't add anything new, if you are not prepared to find this voice deep inside and take it to the surface, show for the critical examination, expose what you have to say and be prepared to be judged.
So my goal for now - to learn to recognize what is desired and what is desirable and find a balance somewhere in-between. Looks like it is quite metaphorical post, not because I meant it so, but because I used wrong words somewhere (where?). Will try to improve
Note to myself: somehow I've learned to pretend that I do not know anything - won't go now into the reasons for that :-) But it is time to learn to communicate what I know. If you want to show up .... SHOW OFF! :-)
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